REFLECTION !

 Too good to lose.

I put it down ❤

It's been a long time since,

I encountered a massive turn of events ;

such a horrible unraveling of my fears,

where all the best moments got washed away in tears.

I stopped for a while to look at my reflection in a mirror,

And I found myself looking at a stranger, inevitably near.

I dare not look into her eyes

For I was afraid of the hell I made her went through,

Afraid of taking away her strengths

and convincing her to dwell in her weaknesses. 

I didn't want to see those bloodshed, watery eyes of hers again

which once wanted to capture the  whole world in them ,

and now hurt a little looking at the masked damage this cosmos offered her .

I was supposed to draw stars around her scars,

to turn her flaws into fireflies which would shine,

But whatever I did, turned her into a helpless soul 

who witnessed her stars turning into scars.

I made her hopes fall apart. 

Now I pretend, it wasn't me 

when I know only I am responsible for her dilemmas.

I want her to deny first, believe later and then accept

that the reality of things is very much different from what is visible from the surface.

That the image of the world she created for herself

needs to change to include the both ; good and bad.

to acknowledge this reality that her shadow too can destroy her. 

I want her to stop existing,

but to start living with whatever she have got.💫