FADED

It was comforting to see a rainbow after the storm 

I mourn over a loss which was never a gain

I try to hide behind a transparent curtain

trying to fight something which is rooted deep in my soul

I am afraid, I am scared of being left behind.

For I have always been last on my priority list 

I urge for a refuge.

I yearn for a change.

I am tired of being a tenant of my mind.

I want to feel things deeply

I want to discover the dark areas of my soul 

which have never been illuminated !

So why does a simple unfavorable event make me overthink about everything ?

Why does I want to stop in the beginning only?

This fear has no logic

I don't feel whole when I should 

I blame others for my miseries

But I accept my flaws 

Still It makes no difference

This is what I am made of

This highly fragile core is in search of meaning that can define the way things are

The way things are meant to be.

Sometimes you learn things the hardest way ever possible

But when you feel unlearn even after learning 

Does it go in Vain?

I want to experience emotions deeply till I go numb

For I would rather stay vulnerable than not to feel at all.

I want to end this with my favorite lyrics, '' I will take my heart and run for good , don't know where?
I'll be dead and gone before you hear a thing!"