EMBRACING SUNSHINE

Shine so bright that it burns their fuckin' eyes!

 HAPPYNESS

I am doing good , much better actually,

It is no longer a quiet voice ,

It no longer makes me feel deserted

Although a part of it still bothers me 

BUT that's going to fade away soon 

For I don't want to keep that part with me forever

The way trees shed their  old leaves I am learning to shed worn out parts of my belief ;

I am not supposed to be stuck at one place forever

LIFE GOES ON AND ON 

Sometimes ON and sometimes OFF

I live for those days when I will lead myself out of my Dilemmas

When I will push myself out of my misery 

 When I will discover my strengths and will be unbreakable

When I will stop putting the key to my happiness in someone else's pocket.

I will nurture my soul and will grow a whole forest out of it

Whose shade will shield me from heat of hurdles.

I want to be this much unafraid that little bullshits can no longer bother me

I desire to be the finest version of myself !

 

FADED

It was comforting to see a rainbow after the storm 

I mourn over a loss which was never a gain

I try to hide behind a transparent curtain

trying to fight something which is rooted deep in my soul

I am afraid, I am scared of being left behind.

For I have always been last on my priority list 

I urge for a refuge.

I yearn for a change.

I am tired of being a tenant of my mind.

I want to feel things deeply

I want to discover the dark areas of my soul 

which have never been illuminated !

So why does a simple unfavorable event make me overthink about everything ?

Why does I want to stop in the beginning only?

This fear has no logic

I don't feel whole when I should 

I blame others for my miseries

But I accept my flaws 

Still It makes no difference

This is what I am made of

This highly fragile core is in search of meaning that can define the way things are

The way things are meant to be.

Sometimes you learn things the hardest way ever possible

But when you feel unlearn even after learning 

Does it go in Vain?

I want to experience emotions deeply till I go numb

For I would rather stay vulnerable than not to feel at all.

I want to end this with my favorite lyrics, '' I will take my heart and run for good , don't know where?
I'll be dead and gone before you hear a thing!"