Getting enough !

 Shattered pieces !

EVERYTHING IS BEAUTIFUL

Coming back to life in fact back to that usual life isn't a piece of cake for everyone. Last time I did promise myself that next time I will not reveal with a sigh of regret about how I spent my month , it seems as if my promise was false (promises often tend to be hollow )as I am able to recapture the time I had with MAY 2022 !Not that bad , I would rather say not that worst ! Great things happened though and a few are scheduled to happen soon ✌. It all started with a new hope of getting better day by day , becoming stronger and less fragile in terms of mental and emotional stability and the most important to start valuing life, prioritizing it over other things (I wonder if anything can be done without having a life ! ) . Start was rather neutral as you know it is always this way , middle was kind of unsatisfactory and  the climax again is getting ready to turn into a misery . There are days when you feel so much blessed , you experience happiness from within and you want to complete tasks . There are those days too when you scarcely wish to move , to smile and to live the way you are continuing to live . Normally there is a balance between such days and life continues to transit between the two but there also comes a point in your life when later overpowers the former days and you start feeling worthless ! I often experience this. After watching a certain movie you feel so much tempted towards the positivity or negativity shown that for a moment it stimulates your senses and you feel so much determined and motivated. After 2- 3 days when this sensation starts fading away you find yourself standing at the crossroads again . This isn't easy at all to find that one purpose to go through . I am still on my way to catch it . Does this ever happen to you that you want a particular thing , you yearn for it as a wolf yearns for moon , as a bird yearns for freedom and a writer yearns for words but we you get that particular thing you find your own reasons to still feel sad about getting that . I know this is quite absurd but I have felt the same many a times. Worldly things can make you happy and can give you a purpose but only upto some extent beyond that you have to find your own way . Here I am sitting at my desk , under a roof , safe and protected crying over  petty problems of my life that I have created myself. I still worry about them when they aren't that real . Have this feeling of unease and discomfort from a long time don't know when it will leave me. I can't
see the end of this loop. I started writing this blog on 31st May and today is 13th of June...you might think what made me this late in completing this ;Actually what happened was we got summer vacations from 2nd of June and then  we went on a small excursion to Hills , a place that will never leave your imagination. Although its been 6 days since I have returned from that place but my heart is still there . At this point of my life when I have loads of work to complete and urgently need my life to be back on track ...I am dreaming of the places to which  I have never been , I am lost somewhere , it feels like we all are lost somewhere( I really don't know why I am including this here but this is all I have got on my mind at this present moment ) Lets return to the main context and that is how I am doing these days , well not much better . Everything seems so damn cinematic , so unreal and so false ; don't know why. How time flies  ! Still a mystery. So I was talking about May and already many days of June have passed too. If I tell you I am not feeling good when nothing really has happened then what will you say ? I know each of you will respond differently . Now for this blog I don't have anything to share👀Lets end this here with affirmative words... WE WILL RISE🤍🔆