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Coming back again and again to the same old place from where you were trying to escape once and are still trying to run off sucks . There are days when you don't feel sound , when your soul ache for support and when you seek for some sympathy but get none instead they tell you that this is life and you have to just go through it and survive 'cause everyone else do the same . They tell you to calm down , to take a deep breath and to look for happiness instead of gloom but how can you see with your eyes closed , how can you trust the timing of your life when everything seems shattered . Still they will say RELAX FRIEND ! you need to think straight , even I sometimes repeat the same words to myself while looking at my reflection in the mirror. This life is crazy where everyone has a different story to tell, they have their own miseries , complaints and insecurities .People have their shady past to carry , miserable present to endure and unpredictable future to go on for. Every mouth has a story to tell , every soul aches for that gentle touch of warmness and compassion. Some days are great and some are the worst of their kind when you feel stagnant and lost. When doing even a simple chore requires too much effort and motivation and when you feel you don't belong here ; Wanna lost in the infinite lights ?YES I WANT ! We live in a world where flowers get withered after being plucked , where your presence becomes blurry , where your heart becomes heavy holding on certain emotions , where a single futile thing can spoil good times . Things are hard and they are gonna be much harder if you think logically since there seems no place for illogic in this perfectly imperfect world . Sometimes I wonder about the weird thoughts coming to my mind , the random things I wanna do , the things holding me back and the problems with myself . All I do is just think in vain . Had I been done, something except thinking I could have been better , probably not complaining for my circumstances. There are moments when you feel that everything is really good and even its not you will make it great but there are moments too when you feel a lot many things weighing you down , your complexes weaving their own nest in you ; consequently intimidating you to look for bad things happening to you , to complain about them and to give up ! You wanna do this , you wanna do that , you wanna go here and you wanna explore , you wanna do things and all _ all these in your head just piling up a lot inside that little space in your body , thereby experiencing pain and grief when things don't go well as were planned by you . Today you are sitting idle , doing nothing 'cause you don't feel like doing anything ; Isn't this enough to justify the time you wasted and are still wasting ? There's a problem in that too 'cause if you keep on doing this daily you will end up regretting even harder. What an irony man ! I'm amazed, like seriously what to do and how to do ? Sitting in a corner of your room waiting for miracles to happen seems quite unreal and childish 'cause its not gonna happen ever . I wish if fairy tales were real ! I am always waiting for that perfect moment when I'll be willing to do things , Alas ! Why aren't the things which give you happiness productive ? Probably because the happiness you experience doing those ain't real. There are many problems like this , many weird questions whose answer is still left to give.
Control is just an illusion . Life is too short to spend it at war with yourself 'cause it really is . For how long you gonna stay here complaining about the things happening to you ? I don't know for how long I am gonna stay 'cause coming out of this loop is another hard thing to accomplish . Is there anything which I can do to make it up with myself ?Ultimate truth is that this time is gonna pass too whether you like it or not . And one day when you will look back again you are not gonna feel any of the emotions you are experiencing now , I am not gonna experience all this negativity either. This is because with time we will feel the mental growth taking place , the changes we are gonna go through to get there . You will not be the same the way you are now at this day next year as I wasn't the same last year . Change is eternal. You want to slice through the darkness to go into light being unaware that you yourself are the light .
Being on a highway full of red lights ain't easy but at least you can try to do something , I am gonna do the same 'cause I can't take no more ! This quote just touched my heart , " Everything will be okay in the end . If it's not okay,
then it's not the END " ACCEPT YOUR PRESENT , WORK ON IT AND MIRCALES ARE GONNA HAPPEN 🦋🌸🔆I'LL TRY MY BEST NOT TO COME HERE AGAIN . Hope that next time the title will be different 👀💙
then it's not the END " ACCEPT YOUR PRESENT , WORK ON IT AND MIRCALES ARE GONNA HAPPEN 🦋🌸🔆I'LL TRY MY BEST NOT TO COME HERE AGAIN . Hope that next time the title will be different 👀💙
