LETTING GO !

 REMINISCING

I don't know !

As days become weeks

And weeks become months

I find myself going far away

from places which used to comfort me 

a while ago, 

I find myself on a road 

which has nothing to offer me

except anguish and coldness

I find myself running away from

who I really am

Pretending the storm has passed,

I feel strange winds on my face

Sun's warmth feels cold

And coldness embraces me in her arms

Every time I try to walk away from bruises

they hold on to me as tightly as they can

My dilemmas feel like spears now

held so tightly that I will bleed

And left as such they will fall down with me

This world sees what it wants to see

not that what is real

Me being a part of this world;

saw everything that was not even there,

Here when I know the reality, the actuality

I refuse to accept things the way they are

I hide myself under an umbrella of lies

which temporarily shields me from the rain of truths

But This can't go on for long

I know something needs to be changed

I can't deny 

All I need to find is that something!