When time seems running so fast !
What a time ? me and I !? What a lie ?
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| Dawn is not so far ! |
This month I kept lying to myself . I watched clock running at a fast pace , I watched sun rises and sunsets , waited for dusks and dawns , talked to moon , played with wind , felt raindrops on my face and experienced melancholy . From Monday to Sunday my life runs and so do I. Its not really that bustling , contrary to this it crawls so slow that I am afraid if I would be left behind . Another month ended and you watched me sitting quiet , lost in thoughts , drowning in unshed tears and seeking peace in unsaid words. Its so damn strange how I managed to maintain the same old balance of complaining at the end of month but I did . I realize I am stuck in this in between . I'm living in a lovely dream which is far from reality and so close to my imagination . I am afraid what I'll do when this dream will end , when reality will knock at my door and I'll have no words to answer her ! This fear is so obvious and it must be there somewhere in my mind to remind me that I have to answer her. I felt something hard against my back and it gave me immense relief to find that I'm lying on floor from which I could no longer fall further . I don't know and don't wanna know if I 'm doing good enough to continue or bad enough to stop . Keep going is risky and stopping is foolishness . Don't make me choose 'cause I know I'm stuck . Its not about doing good or bad its about so much more, its about recognizing yourself , accepting yourself , experiencing immaterialistic happiness and joy . Its not about you and me or that person its about people who are being a part of this cosmos and feel lost or unhappy or sad or anxious or worthless etc. Some days are tough others are easy , some are rainy while other are sunny filled with sun's warmth . I find these lyrics so meaningful and exceptional these say , ''If I show you all my demons and dive into the deep end would we crash and burn like everytime before ? I would tell you all my secrets wrap your arms around my weakness if its the only other option's letting go '' , as we all need this level of reliance upon someone who could be anyone among your friends or family or your soulmate in life . I feel so unreal while writing this , I don't know why ! I am running far away . Will you accompany me ?
