FEBRUARY 2022

Going through a lot many things altogether

I am on my own quest........🙌🌸🍀

So today is the last day of this wonderful cum tragic month of this unpredictable year. Like every month I believed that this month too would be the same i.e. monotonous and full of regrets but nah this month was great in itself; it made me realize the importance of becoming your own support, lending yourself your own shoulder to cry on and focusing more on yourself than people you think makes a difference. This was a month in which I experienced literally each and every emotion from happiness, anger, regret to heartache , numbness and the weird yet valid desire to escape and run off this world to a sweeter place where I can hide away . I don't know what this means to feel overwhelmed and over anxious all the time over petty small matters and things that won't even matter but probably because all this was in my mind it definitely wants to tell me something , to make me feel something  that words can't deliver and to make me long for peace and serenity the way which I never experienced before. There were moments which I adored and I still adore because they were those moments which made me keep going through that imperative phase of my life. Some great things too happen to me in this weirdly unweird month. So it made me realize the importance of taking decisions that how crucial it is to just make choices and to very well go through their consequences . For me it is always being a tough decision to even make decisions and to know myself that what do I really want from myself or from people around me and to my very worst condition in this month there were times where I had to choose between brain and heart, I made decisions recklessly and they will reveal themselves with time . Its really damn important to know what you really want and what makes you happy even in the grimmest time when your feel your mind is not yours and your whole life is not less than a mess. The most important lesson that this month taught me is that we don't always need external sources in terms of
materialistic things and people to feel really happy and calm because true happiness comes from within , it comes  from the love and care you give to yourself. Nothing in life is permanent not happiness and not even gloom , If today you are feeling worthless then tomorrow you may feel even more destroyed but you are never gonna feel the same and this is the ultimate truth .Life is a great movie where each and every  person is hero and villain too. Every person is a sufferer of something or the other but some people are good at hiding their problems than others, some are so strong that they will try their best to make others laugh even if they are crying from inside .Ultimately no one's life is perfect but everyone's life is perfectly imperfect. Embrace yourself and your life the way it is, accept truth from whatever source it comes . Life is always moving whether you like it or not. SO lets close the  chapter of this month here only and wait for tomorrow as TOMORROW IS A NEW DAY ; YOU SHALL BEGIN IT WELL AND SERENELY ,AND WITH TOO HIGH A SPIRIT TO BE CUMBERED WITH YOUR OLD NONSENSE.✌